July 10, 2009

• Justsomethoughts

  For future reference, I would not recommend watching the movie 'ALIVE' before taking an early morning flight the next day (or in a few pre-dawn hours.)  I would also not recommend this in the particular case in which you happen to be seated in the rear of the plane...  because everybody knows that when something goes awry, the back part of the plane is the first to snap off, sending the non-elite, non-first class, cramped, and screaming coach passengers hurtling into the snowy alps to die upon impact while the surviving members freeze to death while contemplating eating each other's flesh.  

  Notwithstanding the reality that there are no alps between Michigan, Minneapolis and LaGuardia (a NYC airport), I was still a little vigilant.  Not that vigilance would've helped but the grogginess really hinders much lucid thinking and just about any shred of rationality.  Take the fact that I had paid $3 bucks for an asiago bagel with cream cheese.  This turned out to be a plain bagel with a crispy, oily topping that I ended up peeling off only to find that they did not provide me with napkins.  But it was toasty.  Yum.  

  Beyond that.  And beyond the fact that I had the thought of my mom's home cooking in the back of my mind...  so what if I actually fell out of the sky in the bottom-half of a plane that had snapped in two?  What if this was my last flight?  I'd like to say that I am ready to die.  To some extent I am, but largely, I know that I have a lot of unfinished business.  Not only in regard to what I want to say to others, but what I know I need to do myself.  

  I want God to be the Lord and Savior of my life.  Not only Savior, but Lord, God and King.  I want Him to be my first and last thought.  I want to confess and repent and experience the refreshing of the Holy Spirit.  Daily.  I want to be better, not worse, and move upward, not downward.  I want to lead, not be led.  I want to control, not be controlled.  Most of all, I want God to not only endorse and ratify but produce and motivate these decisions.  

  Because in the grand scheme of things, I suppose we are all in the back end of a plane.  But some of us will make it.  And when we land, it won't be in the alps.  You know?

  All in all, I had a great time in Michigan, and I am grateful for all the friends whose friendship, generosity, big-heartedness, and godliness made my trip possible and made my life that much more enriched while I was there.  I am blessed to have people like ya'll in my life.  I didn't realize how much of my life was entangled in that glove of a state (and above) which I never thought I'd live in or love.  But look at things now.  I not only lived in it, but I found that there is a lot to love about it.  

  Thanks.  I'm glad we're together on this Great Road Home.  

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