December 16, 2007

• Flooding

  Today was not so good.

  But like I told my student who did what he could to cheer me up (ah, I love my job), in the grand scheme of things, this doesn't scratch the surface of what a REALLY bad day could've been.  I'm ok.  Just tired.  Exhausted.  Spent.  What do you expect from having to go to school on a Sunday?  Well.  How about having terrible meetings (count: four of them)? 

  All day today.  Spent.  Done.  Gone.  Completely poured out for these kids.  We're all starting to suffer here.  The students, the staff, even the weather.  And believe me, I had better things to do today.  But it was so necessary that I be here...  sigh. 

  Yeah.  Compound that with a stress headache and you've got recipe for disaster.  But throw in a student who cares and suddenly...  suddenly things are bearable again.  And here I was thinking that I was the only one who had something to offer...  as I've mentioned earlier on this blog, I've found that the laboring towards the salvation of others is reciprocated, no matter how discouraging it can be sometimes, and perhaps precisely because it is so discouraging sometimes.

  And sometimes, no amount of happy thoughts or reminders can dispel the cloud that hangs overhead.  Often, it's not the past which encourages me, but the future.  So here's to the future.  (And vacation in just 2 short days.) 

  Two Bible verses I've been clinging to these past few:

  "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in Thee."  Isaiah 26:3

  "...when the enemy shall come like a flood, the LORD shall lift up a standard against him."  Isaiah 59:19

  And as always, I can count on Isaiah to lift me up as he's been doing ever since God drew me back to Him... 

  Dear brothers and sisters in this world of Xanga, I need your prayers.  This school needs your prayers.  I need more than any earthly person can give me...  the task is so big, so daunting, so tremendous, and I am so frustratingly unworthy of it.  Completely and totally incapable.  It makes me want to run.  But where is there to go? 

  Sometimes I think I hang on only because I thrive on challenges.  Other times I know it's purely supernatural and I have nothing to do with it. 

  Wisdom.  I understand Solomon and his cry for wisdom more and more each day.  I only wish I can have that kind of wisdom. 

  Been learning about Saul and David this week during devotions.  God can do great things even when we are little in our own eyes...  even when we are so small...

   

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